Long time no "speak"~

Hey guys.. It has been a while since I had last written, hasn't it? Well, can't say that I was busy and can't say that I wasn't busy the whole while..

I had been busy for the past 3 weeks with my folio. Gosh.. It was a torture to finish them all. 2 folios for Malaysian Studies and another 2 for Pendidikan Moral. The folio is nothing.. Just the title of the folio. So hard.. My Kerja Kursus Individu for Moral was on our opinion of whether human blood becoming a commodity was something morally right. I spent the most time on this. And for Sejarah, we had to criticize and discuss about Manila's claim on Sabah. If the folios were in English, maybe that would have been much easier. But all were in Malay! Gosh.. And some of you may know that my BM isn't that good.. *Sobs* But at last I still managed to finish them by the deadline.. Only to find out that the lecturer then extended the deadline to end of this month. *Faint*

Anyways, it was a good thing that I managed to finish it off. Now I can focus on my preparations for the exam period. My internal exams are starting on the 23rd. I think it is for one week. Not quite sure as the time table hasn't been announced yet. Two weeks after that, my external exams will start. 9th December till 15th December. Phew.. Such a long exam period! Hope I can make it out alive. Haha..

The only thing I'm sad about is not being able to participate in any Christmas activities in my church! Arghh.. There is the choir, but practices are once every week. There is the dance, but practices are three times a week. There is the Christmas Caroling at 1Borneo. I might be joining this..(Might be..) Will just have to see how it goes..

Hopefully I can help out in the media team on Christmas day itself. Have to wait for Mun Yee to give me the confirmation though. If not, I'd be in the crowd yet again this year. Only watching but not being involved. *Sigh*

Can you believe it?

It's the last few days of September already! Can you really believe it? Time really does fly.. But this time, it's not even when you are having fun.

I still remember at the beginning of the month that people kept writing "Wake me up when September ends" on their Facebook status. So, people, you guys can wake up now.. It's really ending. Did you do anything productive? Or were you really just "sleeping" it through?

For myself, as much as I hate to say it, I had been "sleeping" all these weeks. And the guilt is killing me! I did start to study. But the "routine" kind of vanish after just a few days.

Sometimes, I just disappoint myself. I feel so... Lost? Unmotivated? Regretful? When will I ever realise that I need to really work hard to study this course! Is it when I fail one of my papers and everything goes out of order? ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I'm sad and angry at the same time.. Help! Not just because of my studies.. It's about everything in my life.. It's like my life is not fulfilling.. How come it can all change in just one year? Last year, I had been so happy with my life.. And now...

I really hope this is another phase of life.. I really don't want this feeling in me now to last anymore..

Mid-term~

Well, my mid-term is over! Thank goodness for that.. All those studying was really about to make my head blow!! Who knew studying something like accounting would be so challenging.. SO many things to memorize.. Gosh..

And you know what mid-term means.. It means that I now have half the time to prepare for my year end external exam.. And I got to say, I'm definitely not looking so forward to it. I could just imagine myself panicking over it. And getting sweaty palms while answering the questions.. Or maybe.. My hands would freeze as I heard that the exam hall is super duper cold.. Arghh~

Anyhow, I'll still have to face it in the end.. So, why worry? It'll come and go as it always has.. Just.. Hopefully, I'll get into the study mood soon.. @.@

Terry~

My dear friend, Terry will be leaving for Taiwan tomorrow! Gosh.. Time passes so fast! I still remember it being just last month when we were all thinking that things were still so far away.. Now, the time has arrived and he is getting ready to leave.

This friend of mine was introduced by another good friend, Jessie when I was in Form 2. That time, I didn't know him that well. We just did projects together and discussed about our folios and what not. As time passed, we grew closer and closer in friendship. It's like we could share anything between the two of us. I could always depend on him to lend a listening ear, to cheer me up when I was down or to understand and relate to what I was feeling. We could always discuss about anything and give each other advices. We could also spend hours and hours on the phone just chatting away! Aww... Really gonne miss all of these "routine" of ours.

As the months passed this year and we have left high school, the calls grew lesser, but I still feel that we are as close as always. Thinking of him leaving for his Univeristy life is both bitter and sweet. Sometimes, when you meet a special person in life, it is a little hard to see the person stepping further and further away in your life. It is like, the person has always played a part in your life and now, that part would be smaller than it used to be.

But.. Enough said, I still want to wish him all the very best! It is his dream of going to Taiwan. It is his dream to become a doctor in the future. With that, I wish you smooth sailing with all that is to come. Big waves may come crashing, but take up courage and face them. You will still have your friends right there beside you. I'm sure we will still keep in touch and I will be looking forward to seeing you when you get back to KK again next year.

God bless Terry and take care! Make the best of things there and do not be afraid of what is to come. All those reasons that made you choose Taiwan will be the reasons that will make you happy there! Love ya, Terry! =)

每一个女孩的身边都有 一个不是男朋友的男朋友..

每一个 女孩的身边都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友...
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。
也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而 迟迟无法跨出界线。
不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你 们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。
他遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮他，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。
男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，
但 你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。
每个人这辈子，
心 中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很 矛盾的行为。
一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但 久了，突然发现这样最好。
你宁愿这样关心他，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。
特别是这样，
你还是知道，
他永远会关心你的。
做不成男女朋友，
当他那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？
你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？
很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都 当不成了
常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来 很好的友情
最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反 应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些 人会因此不肯踏出这一步。
因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成 了。
有些事 不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还 可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好.
希望你们能珍惜身边的人，
可能在这一刻你们不觉得他/她是你生命中最重要的人...
一旦他/她已离你身边而去时，才发觉...
一切都太迟了....

A desperate woman writes to the Technical support person. Lol~

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and I noticed a distinct slowdown in the overall system performance, particularly in the flower and jewellery applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, and then installed undesirable programs such as NEWS 5.0, MONEY 3.0 and CRICKET 4.1.

Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system.

Please note that I have tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

What can I do?

Signed,

Desperate Woman






DEAR DESPERATE Madam,

First, keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system.

Please enter command: i thought you loved me. html and try to
download Tears 6.2 and do not forget to install the Guilt 3.0 update.
If that application works as designed, Husband 1.0should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

However, remember, overuse of the above application can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Beer 6.1.
Please note that Beer 6. 1 is a very bad program that willdownload the Farting and Snoring Loudly Beta.

Whatever you do, DO NOT under any circumstances install Mother-In-Law 1.0

(it runs a virus in the background that
will eventually seize control of all your system
resources.)

In addition, please do not attempt to reinstall the Boyfriend 5.0 program. These are unsupported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly.
You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance.
We recommend: Cooking 3.0 and Hot Looks 7.7.

Good Luck Madam!

Tech Support

Something from my mailbox~

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.


To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.


To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...


To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you', but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'


To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.


To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.


To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.


To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.


To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.



To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....



TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......
My wish for you is a man/woman whose love is honest, strong, mature, uplifting, protective, encouraging and unselfish.

Study study study!

Hmm.. Was supposed to study after dinner. But still haven't started until now~ Lazy.. Procrastinating! Gosh.. That's all I do nowadays.. Very bad ain't it? My old studious-self is gone.. Don't know where she went already.. Can't seem to find her.. Help me to look? Lol..

Can't believe that it would be one month tomorrow since I started my ACCA Skills Level. So so so fast! It feels like I'm still in my holiday mood.. Haven't gotten the "kick" back in learning and studying.. Hope I get back in the mood soon though. Coz I need to work hard to pass the three papers in December..

This semester I have 14 classmates studying with me.. I know more than half of them. But there are still a handful of them that I've not spoken to. Hopefully, I can get the chance somehow. And the funny thing is I don't even know the names of some of them. Funny right? Classmates for a month already but I still don't even know their names. Haha..

I have 2 lecturers this semester. One is the same as the last semester while the other is a new lecturer for me. The new lecturer is good. I like that he has his own audit firm and so, he has a lot of experience. He would always tell us about his personal experience and this would help us understand the topics more.

Oh ya.. And he's funny too. You know what? We all realised after a few lessons what his favourite word is! Guess guess guess! Haha.. It's "Alamak"~ He always says that word as we all are very slow in grasping what he's teaching. So we always laugh when we hear that word. He says it around five times or more each day. So hilarious~ And the way he says it is super funny too.. Oh ya.. And another favourite sentence of his(if it can be counted as a sentence) is "Die lo.." I know, sounds negative but it's funny to hear him say it though.. And the laughter loosens up the tension in class~

Tomorrow I'll be facing him for four hours. Gotta start preparing for his class then. Gotta read up and be prepared for his list of questions~ Wish me luck! =)

Baking!!!

So... Recently, I keep having the urge to bake.. Been at it for almost a month now.. Don't know why, but I just feel like making something all the time. I even started baking at 10p.m. last week coz the thought of baking kept creeping into my head and I couldn't concentrate on other things. Lol.. Does that sound scary? And and and... One day, my mom even asked me if I was ok and whether there was something wrong with me.. Haha.. I just laughed and said I was fine~ =)

I've made a few things.. Some turned out quite well and some needed more practice.. I've done marble cake, cream puffs, "snowballs", pudding, etc. Gonna make chocolate chip cookies tomorrow as my friend wanted to eat them. So I can't wait for tomorrow! More baking! Whee~~~

(I Love You) More~

Take a look at the mountains
Stretching a mile high
Take a look at the ocean
Far as your eye can see
And think of Me

Take a look at the desert
Do you feel like a grain of sand?
I am with you wherever
Where you go is where I am

And I'm always thinking of you
Take a look around you
I'm spelling it out one by one

(Chorus)
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more

Just a face in the city
Just a tear on a crowded street
But you are one in a million
And you belong to Me

And I want you to know
That I'm not letting go
Even when you come undone

(Chorus)
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more
I love you more

Shine for Me
Shine for Me
Shine on, shine on
Shine for Me

(Chorus)
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more

(Chorus)
Than the sun
and the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you, yesterday and today
Through the joy and the pain
I'll say it again and again
I love you more
I love you more

And I see you
And I made you
And I love you more than you can imagine
More than you can fathom
I love you more than the sun
And you shine for me

I can only imagine~

I Can Only Imagine lyrics

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

I can only imagine

[Chorus:]
Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

I can only imagine

[Chorus]

I can only imagine [x2]

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

I can only imagine




This song always bring tears to my eyes and makes me look forward to the day when I get to stand before my Lord God.. "I can only imagine; When all I will do; Is forever; Forever worship You"!

Frustrated

=(

Don't like this feeling.. Not now, not ever.. Haiz.. One of the reasons is that I've been doing ONE Accounting question the whole night.. Really gonna go mad just thinking about it! I don't know what I'm supposed to do with the information given.. Hmph! Maybe I'm just too clueless in Accounting.. Wish there's a way for me to learn from the basics.. *sob*

"Food" for thought~

I'M A CHRISTIAN By Maya Angelou

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin."
I'm whispering "I was lost,"
Now I'm found and forgiven.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
and need HIS strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
but, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain,
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
who received God's good grace, somehow.

Father's Day~

I think this year's Father's Day was the most "eventful" one for me.. Well, at least we did a lot of things to prepare for the day. Usually, we would go out for dinner to celebrate. If not, then it would be take away. But this year, we made everything.. =)

My mom, my sis and I worked together to prepare all the food stuff.. Saturday night, we baked the Chocolate Walnut Buttercake with Chocolate Whip Cream~ Yummy! We started baking around 7:30p.m. and we only managed to finish everything(including washing up) at 12:15a.m. So long right? Coz we had to mix the things in the mixer for quite a long time if I were to say.. After that, the cake took 1 hour and 15 minutes to bake, another 1 hour and 15 minutes to cool, and then to make the whip cream and "decorate" the cake took us around half and hour.. Who would know that it would take such a long time to bake and present a cake.. Haha.. But anyways, we made it and we slept around 2a.m.

I had to wake up around 7a.m. today as my family were going to have breakfast with my grandauntie who had came back from Australia.. Breakfast was ok.. We ate at The Emperor.. The service was bad.. We had to "self-service" and we also kept asking for desert but still no one came to take our order.. =.=" So, in the end, we payed and and my mom, sis and I went to church straight after..

My dad made Tong Sui all of a sudden. When we came home from church, he said to me: "I made the yam and sweet potato tong sui. Don't know how to make la.. Just simply boil only.." But it turned out nice. Like those selling in the stalls. Although it is not my favourite, but I drank a boil.. Yummy~ We even ate the cake that we baked. Can see that today was full of carbs.. Lol.. Getting fat already~ @.@

Around 5p.m., just as we were going to prepare dinner, we realised that the appliances in the kitchen wasn't working.. My dad said that the current must have tripped and we had to wait till the next day to call the maintainance guy to come fix it.. But luckily, we could extend the plug to the sockets in the dining area and we managed to use the oven and to plug in the fridge. Praise God.. So, we made everything according to plan: Tiger Prawns with Mozerella Cheese, Buttered Rice with Raisins and Onions plus Garlic Bread.. Yum yum!

Well, I guess we really need to give all glory to God as He really helped us in many things.. He had made sure the mixer functioned well(the last time we used it, there was smoke!), He managed to make the cake turn out well, He made sure that dinner was still able to be prepared, He made sure that we would not need to worry about anything as He will be in everything! My God is really awesome! =)

Oh ya.. I even made a card for my dad.. Wanna see? Haha.. Actually, it is a cross stitch that I did and pasted it on papers..

What to Feel?

Recently, I am always in a grumpy mood. I constantly mope around and feel sad.. What's wrong with me??? *sigh* Even when I laugh, I sometimes feel that it is forced or not really what I feel. Sometimes I just laugh all crazily, hoping that maybe by laughing, I might feel better or even happier~ But I'm not even sure if it's working!

One of my close friends is facing a really major situation now. She might be losing someone very important in her life! It is really a very sad thing to hear.. Especially when we're that close. I think this is a part of the reason why I'm feeling sad. I feel so helpless in helping her. I know, there's nothing much that I can do to help. But at least I should be there comforting her and helping her feel better. The problem is.. I don't know how!! Every time I wanted to sms her, I would start typing but then in the end, I'd erase it all. You know why? Coz I feel that what I write would not help her at all. I feel that whatever I say, she will always think that I don't know what I'm talking about coz I'm not the one facing the situation. I feel that I don't even know what she's facing anymore or even how she feels.. It's just been so long since we last had a real good chat..

And those who know me know that I'm always affected by other people's problem. If they are sad, I'd be too. If they cry and they feel hurt, I would too.. If they are disappointed, somehow I would too.. Sounds ridiculous? But that's me.. And now, it's the same thing happening. I often cry myself to sleep. I often have sleepless nights. I try tiring myself by keeping busy so that I can fill up my mind with other things. Because all I'm thinking about is how to help her. How come all this can happen to her. How come she needs to face this now. How come How come How come! But all I get is darker circles around my eyes and no answers..

I know that this is not my problem and I shouldn't feel too bad about it. That I shouldn't let it affect me too much. But then, I still do. Coz I feel that if someone else can't be happy, then I can't too.. This is a really wrong "attitude" to have. But I don't know how to change it. It is as though "programmed" in me to be like this!

I really wish that things would be better. That her loved one would be healed. So that she can be happy, her family members can be happy and in the end, I'd be happy too. But this all seems impossible. Seeing from her blog, I know that things are getting worse. I know that the chances of being healed is slim. I know all that and now I'm even more sad..

Lord, will You help all of us in this situation? Will You place Your loving hands on this? I know that people live and die. I know that we don't control the time that a person leaves this earth. But I do hope, that for all the time that is left, all the happiness that is possible will be felt. That even if it really is the time to go, things will not be so hard for my friend and her family members. I pray that the whole family may be strong, that they will be able to hold on and not give up any hope! For I believe that miracles can happen, even to those who are not yet your followers. I know that you love them too.. So Lord, please pour out your comfort and grace in this hard time, that we may not lose hope.

Weird feelings~

I came home two hours ago.. Went out with Sali, Sali's brother, CCY and her sister.. They dropped by my house to give me my photo album and then we went out to the beach and after that, to Damai to play snooker.. Not that I knew how to play.. But at least, I tried.. Haha.. And I guess I had a great time.. Seeing that I spent the whole weekend at home.. Not even stepping out of my front door.. @.@

But just now, Sali said that she might be going to KL to study next year.. And that was quite a blow.. Hmm.. Actually, maybe it wasn't. I kinda knew that she would say that one day.. And actually, before I went out tonight, I had that exact thought, that she would say she is going to KL to study.. I'm happy for her.. Coz she has always been saying that she wants to study the course that she likes but her parents wouldn't allow her. Now seeing that she finally has the chance, I'm absolutely thrilled. I am.. Just that.. Well, she was the only person in my close group of friends that was supposed to stay here in KK. And if she really does go, where would that leave me?

I know.. Friends come and go.. But it is really a sad thought, no? Terry would be leaving in September or even earlier, in August.. And then, the next would be Sali, if she really does decide to go.. All my friends would really be scattered then.. And who knows what that would do to our tight-knit relationship.. First Caroline, then Jessie and Joyce, then Amie and Shu Ling, then Terry, then Sali.. Aiks..

I always thought that I would be the one who goes away to study too. That I would be able to send in my result slips and then be offered offer letters. That I would get to stay some place new and try to live by my own. That I would cry over the fact that I miss my family and friends. That I would look so forward to going home during the holidays.. But life is really unpredictable, isn't it? What you always think isn't what always happens.. It isn't what always turns out..

Actually, I don't feel angry or regretful that my life wasn't what I thought it would be like. I am actually very grateful that I get to stay close with my family members. I feel that we have been growing closer together as time passes and I'm always very happy being with them. I am very happy that I can meet new friends in my college and that I would be meeting even more new ones in the coming semester.. I'm glad that I can stay on in my church. It is an awesome place to worship..

I am happy with what I have. But sometimes I do wonder what it would have been like if I did get what I wanted when I got into College/Uni.. It isn't wrong to wonder, is it? Maybe I would have more things to be busy about, maybe I would join clubs, or maybe I would be working part time.. Whole loads of "Maybe's" and makes me think whether I would feel more self-accomplished.

This is a whole lot of "crap".. One part I'm happy, then I'm sad, then I'm grateful and then I'm guessing what life would be like if it was different.. Really just whole loads of feelings just sweeping over me. And maybe.. I just need to sleep it off. Hopefully, it will not bother me when I've woken up later in the morning..

Part 1 of ACCA over~

Oh my gosh~ Part 1: Knowlegde of ACCA is over! Today was the last day of the exam for me.. And I can't believe that 5 months of studying this is now over.. Now I can look forward to the new semester.. And I already know that there will be loads of new classmates! Looking forward to that~ Can make new friends! ^^ New semester will bring about new changes though.. No more MCQ's for exams.. It'll all be written ones. And no more lecturers that I've gotten used to.. New lecturers~ *Sigh*

Anyways, talking about exam~ I managed to pass all 3 papers of my Part 1! My first paper was really good.. 80% and I'm very glad with that.. Thanks to Mr. Aw for all his hardwork in explaining things so that we can always remember them.. But for my second and third papers, not that good luck~ Just 64% for both papers.. Can't believe that I managed to get the same marks for F2 and F3! What are the odds of that? But as long as I passed and don't need to pay RM380 to re-sit any paper, then I'm a happy girl~ Haha..

Well, I'll be having 3 weeks of holiday now~ So happy! Finally get my long awaited school holiday~ Coz now, not like the days in Kian Kok.. Every 3 months get school holidays~ Those were the days~ Haha.. I guess I'll start watching Terry's FRIENDS DVD collection.. So nice of him to lend me those.. Wonder whether I'll be able to finish watching them or not.. So many~ @.@ And I also plan to read some books. Got a lot of books that I've bought but not yet read.. Should catch up on that too~ Hehe..

Jessie is coming back soon!!! So happy.. Another couple of weeks~ So fast.. Hopefully she can come to KK and stay here a bit longer.. I know she needs to be with her family in Labuan too.. But I wanna see her! Miss her so much~ Waiting for that~ ^^

I heard this song from a Singaporen series.. I like it~


Lyrics:
请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)

Hope you will like it too~ =)

Mock exam is over!

My mock exam is over.. But I'm not feeling overjoyed.. I feel that I didn't do the best that I could have! I thought I did well in my F1 paper.. But I just marked my answers and I realised I only gotten 57%!!!! That is really very bad.. I don't want marks below 60.. At least a 6 in front of my mark.. The higher the better.. I managed to get 74% the last time.. Why did it drop so far down this time.. Maybe I didn't work hard enough.. Today's F3 was ok, but I still didn't manage to finish of the 6 questions I had left.. Really a disappointment!

Ah well.. It's over and I can't do anything about it.. Just need to work much harder for my actual exams next week.. Lord, please help me to be well prepared for the exam.. Let me do my best and hopefully my best will be what I targeted..

More "surprises"!

Gosh.. I just found out that my computer-based exam isn't just MCQ's!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my goodness.. All this while I thought paper-based and computer-based are the same.. And I was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO wrong!! I need to calculate and enter some of my own answers for the computer-based.. Oh NO!! Freaking out right now~~~ But no fair.. The lecturers said it's all the same for the two exam methods!! How come only now I know that actually they're different?!

Oh man.. How come I didn't know about this earlier.. Really need to pick up the pace. Can't lose to this!!! No no no!!! I will do just fine. Relax.. *Breath in and breath out* Lord, please help me out.. I know You are there for me in my good times and in my hard times..

And another thing.. Mr. Aw announced today in class that he wants to give mini-mock exams next week! One week before the real mock exams, he'll be giving us 3 small tests to "prepare" us for the internal and external exams.. Means I'll be having "exams" for the next 3 weeks~~ Although his one doesn't count for any marks, but this means I need to revise everything for his paper this weekend.. Golly~ Seems quite impossible..

Anyways, gonna study Mr. Edward's paper now.. At least I hope I can focus and not fall into my afternoon nap! Tata~

Quiz~

Saw this quiz on Yee Ling's page.. I did it and it was kinda accurate for me.. Why don't you try it as well and tell me what did you get.. =) Btw, I got to D. 牧羊犬...


人与动物之间有很多相似的特质，想不想知道隐藏在你身体里的动物特质是哪一种？

　　1. 公车靠站，车上已经载满了人，下一班车要一刻钟后才到，你会怎么办呢？

　　◎不想再等下去了，再挤也要上车──请答第 2 题

　　◎人太多了，还是等一班吧！──请答第 4 题

　　2. 旅行途中的你突然头很痛，这时正好有热心人拿药给你吃，你会如何抉择呢？

　　◎说声谢谢后马上吃药 ──请答第 6 题

　　◎找理由拒绝对方的药──请答第 3 题

　　3. 某部电影很让你感动，你有何反应呢？

　　◎会跟身边的人讲故事情节，推荐给别人 ──请答第 12 题

　　◎将感动藏在心里，不需与人分享──请答第 7 题

　　4. 一辆红色的面包车开到湖边，你认为里面坐的是什么人？

　　◎一队情侣或一家人──请答第 3 题

　　◎歹徒──请答第 5 题

　　5. 画面上有一颗桃心，你会联想到什么呢？

　　◎爱情──请答第 12 题

　　◎ 扑克牌 ──请答第 8 题

　　6. 朋友说她要去参加一个聚会，你会怎样呢？

　　◎要求带你一起参加─ ─请答第 9 题

　　◎除非她主动说要带你去，不然的话只有保持沉默──请答第 10 题

　　7. 和男孩子一起用餐，餐费是他主动付的，好像花了不少钱，你有什么感觉呢？

　　◎觉得过意不去，之后会跟他平摊费用 ──请答第 10 题

　　◎男生埋单天经地义，会道谢但不出钱 ──请答第 12 题

　　8. 参加同学会的时候发现你最要好的朋友却没来，你会怎么办呢？

　　◎觉得很没趣，早早回家吧──请答第 13 题

　　◎硬着头皮敷衍到底──请答第 12 题

　　9. 你希望多少岁的时候步入结婚礼堂？

　　◎ 21-25 岁 ──请答第 11 题

　　◎ 26-30 岁──请答第 10 题

　　10. 星期天在家，手机和座机同时响起，你会怎么办呢？

　　◎ 先接其中的一个 ──请答第 15 题

　　◎两个一起接──请答第 16 题

　　11. 如果你抽奖中了一栋别墅，你希望它位于何处呢？

　　◎ 海边或湖畔 ──请答第 14 题

　　◎小岛上──请答第 15 题

　　12. 拥挤的车厢里一位漂亮的女孩子被人踩到脚了，你认为她的表情应该是怎样的呢？

　　◎疼得叫起来──请答第 16 题

　　◎非常生气，责怪对方──请答第 17 题

　　13. 一位跟你不是很要好的朋友请你吃饭，你会有什么感觉呢？

　　◎对方发财了──请答第 21 题

　　◎必然有事相求 ──请答第 17 题

　　14. 朋友送了一份你不是很喜欢的礼物给你，你会怎么做呢？

　　◎平静地说谢谢──请答第 18 题

　　◎假装很开心的样子──请答第 19 题

　　15. 大卖场四折大清仓，你会怎么做呢？

　　◎疯狂大采购──请答第 18 题

　　◎不一定要买什么──请答第 19 题

　　16. 你是否将人家送给你的东西转送给他人？

　　◎有过──请答第 19 题

　　◎ 从来没有 ──请答第 20 题

　　17. 一位妖精女子在等出租车，凭直觉你认为她要去做什么呢？

　　◎去跟男朋友约会──请答第 16 题

　　◎去夜总会上班 ──请答第 21 题

　　18. 突然有人从背后重重地拍了一下你的肩膀，你猜这个拍你的人是男生还是女生呢？

　　◎ 男生 ──请答第 22 题

　　◎女生──请答第 23 题

　　19. 你比较喜欢喝冰红茶还是珍珠奶茶呢？

　　◎珍珠奶茶──请答第 18 题

　　◎冰红茶──请答第 20 题

　　20. 你和好朋友一起乘车，你会主动帮对方买票吗？

　　◎会──请答第 24 题

　　◎ 不会 ──请答第 21 题

　　21. 对于酷酷的异性，你有接近他的想法吗？

　　◎有──请答第 25 题

　　◎ 没有 ──请答第 23 题

　　22. 一男一女在街上勾肩搭背，你认为他们是什么关系呢？

　　◎恋爱关系──答案 A

　　◎ 没有 ──请答第 23 题

　　22. 一男一女在街上勾肩搭背，你认为他们是什么关系呢？

　　◎恋爱关系──答案 A

　　◎ 纯友谊关系 ──答案 B

　　23. 每个女孩子都有玩家家的经历，回想一下，孩童时代的你比较喜欢扮演妈妈还

　　是小孩呢？

　　◎喜欢扮妈妈──答案 E

　　◎喜欢扮小孩─ ─答案 C

　　24. 在游乐场玩耍，你比较喜欢玩以下哪一个游乐项目呢？

　　◎摩天轮──答案 F

　　◎秋千── 答案 D

　　25. 跟朋友在一起好像总有说不完的话题似的？

　　◎ 是的 ──答案 G

　　◎不一定──请答第 24 题

　　

　　答案:

　　A. 梅花鹿

　　谨慎小心，待人和蔼可亲

　　外冷内热的梅花鹿做事谨慎小心，很少鲁莽行事，这类型的人有完美主义倾向，自尊心又强，最瞧不起懦弱的表现，更不喜欢让别人看到自己的缺点，有时外表看似冷

　　漠，其实却有颗温柔坦诚的心，是慢热型的人，偶尔也会被周遭的人或事感动得落泪，也不排除歇斯底里发泄情绪的时刻。

　　【如何排除人际烦恼】

　　过于追求完美的你无形中与人有隔膜，你应该主动敞开心扉，表现出最真的你，将深藏的热情与坦率展现出来，大家才会对你刮目相看，不妨将你的心事与身边的朋

　　友分享，他们会理解你的。

　　【对异性的态度】

　　你一直都在苦苦找寻能真正读懂你心的人，因为你那起伏不定情绪极度缺乏安全感，所以你需要一位能包容你，值得依靠的蓝颜知己。

　　【职业预测】

　　你拥有绝佳的想象力与品位，适合自己创业或在艺术领域里发挥所长。

　　

　　B. 海龟

　　协调性强，对人温柔体贴

　　海龟派的协调性比较强，做事脚踏实地，内心温柔细腻且易碎，所以经常要承受过大的压力又不大愿意将烦恼说出来，这类人的个性为内向害羞，一般来说，很少与人发生争斗，更不喜欢在众人面前出风头，举手投足间充满温柔恬静的味道，感性的你很容易为别人流泪，也很为他人着想。

　　【如何排除人际烦恼】

　　厌恶阶段斗争的你为了保持一团和气，有可能说些善意的谎言，你从不敢抗拒长辈的要求，也不好意思拒绝别人的请求，所以许多工作都落到了你头上，不用过于在意别人的想法，你应该更重视自己的感受。

　　【对异性的态度】

　　你向往细水长流的爱情，就算拍拖，行为举止也跟平常差不多，此外，你对另一半的依赖心比较严重，适合你的人必须成熟稳重又体贴多情。

　　【职业预测】

　　医生、护士、幼儿园老师、客户联络员都比较适合你。

　　

　　C. 折耳猫

　　注重外表的时髦派

　　爱出风头的折耳猫，有着异常可爱的外表，不论走到何处永远都是众人的焦点，这类型的人感知流行时尚的能力超好，懂得如何打扮自己，展现自己的优点，虽然有点臭美，但绝不会盲从，因为天生的好品位，所以你很擅长打造属于自己的风格，言行举止略显夸张的你也是社交高手。

　　【如何排除人际烦恼】

　　好恶分明的你，只要是自己不愿意做的事就会明明白白地拒绝，你绝对不会勉强自己去配合别人的步调，与志同道合的人交往或共事，能给你带来快乐，你也会在他们的帮助下不断成长。

　　【对异性的态度】

　　异性面前的你自信满满，你对另一半的要求很高，他一定会跟你一样优秀或更出色，才能在征服你的心，你那魔女般的气质，将周遭的男生迷得团团转。

　　【职业预测】

　　品位出众的你社交能力超强，适合朝演艺界发展。

　　

　　D. 牧羊犬

　　忠心，目的性比较强

　　牧?犬对主人百分百忠心，为了完成工作不惜付出一切，这类型的人非常遵守规章制度，对于朋友拜托的事都会如期完成，人缘很不错，有教养又懂礼貌的你不喜欢出

　　风头，只要做好职责范围之内的事就尽情沉醉在自我的兴趣中咯，闲暇时候的你那副悠闲自得的模样，很是令人羡慕。

　　【如何排除人际烦恼】

　　因为个性随和的缘故，所以你跟任何人都能和平相处，对人缺乏防备可以说是你的最大缺点，也是你烦恼的根源，心太诚太善的话，很容易被人利用，你必须提高警惕，才不至于让吃亏上当。

　　【对异性的态度】

　　你非常享受谈恋爱的感觉，对于不入眼的异性相当冷漠，一般来说，你很少为爱受折磨，就算有喜欢的对象也不敢主动告白，不过一旦爱起来将是那么热情难挡。

　　【职业预测】

　　你的好耐心是大优点哦，适合当医生、会计师、电脑工程师等。

　　

　　E. 金丝猴

　　知性外表下有颗坚强的心

　　金丝猴具有大智慧，非常聪明，所以这类型的人大多理性又有才华，自信的你

　　就算有再大的成就也不会骄傲，虽然从内心来说，也很希望得到他人的赞赏，但却表现得

　　很沉稳，一副宠辱不惊的样子，你一旦遇到自己喜欢的事就会大把大把投入时间和精力，

　　甚至有可能到废寝忘食的地步哦！

　　【如何排除人际烦恼】

　　你虽然不会主动攻击别人，但却蛮喜欢和别人抬杠！当你与人争论时，总是一副理直

　　气壮的样子，让对手无法招架，对人际关系也有一定的影响，注意一下你的语调，

　　口气不要太严厉了。

　　【对异性的态度】

　　你在感情上是相当自我的人，表面上对恋人百依百顺，其实却很有自己的想法

　　和原则 ，你讨厌被恋人命令和束缚，一旦分歧过大，你便会主动提出分手。

　　【职业预测】

　　你是最佳的配合者，比较适合做经理助理、经纪人等。

　　

　　F. 长颈鹿

　　知性优雅，默默等待爱情

　　长颈鹿是位冷静的思考者，这类型的人知性而优雅，喜欢研究问题，为人成熟

　　稳重，进退自如，绝不会做出令人大跌眼镜的事情来，人缘不错，大家都很喜欢你，不管

　　遇到什么状况，你都能冷静处理，但也因为在一些小地方上过于保守，可能会白白错失不

　　少机会，当机会降临时可要抓牢哦！

　　【如何排除人际烦恼】

　　你从不会拒绝别人的请求，不管身边的朋友拜托你做什么，你都欣然接受，这

　　样一来 ，很容易把自己累坏哦！别人喜欢依赖你，而你却找不到可以依赖的人，你必须向

　　别人请求支援才能为自己减压。

　　【对异性的态度】

　　你很少主见主动追求别人，你好像一直在默默等待有缘人的出现哦！过于温吞

　　的个性是你恋爱路上的绊脚石，你必须积极行动起来才能牢牢抓住手中的红线。

　　【职业预测】

　　你的理性和知性，适合做心理咨询师、访谈专员、顾问等。

　　

　　G. 野象

　　自由奔放的霸道主义者

　　野象从小就生长在丛林里，非常热爱自由，高大醒目的外表很是抢眼，这类型

　　的人开朗乐观，自由奔放，颇得众人的喜爱，豪放起来有点不拘小节，不了解你的人可能

　　会被吓一跳哦！你具有积极进取的精神，为人坦率直接，行事果决，不管遇到大事还是小

　　事，都不会犹豫，越能激发你的斗志。

　　【如何排除人际烦恼】

　　你有点小小的霸道，有时候让人很反感，建议你最好控制一下自己的坏脾气，

　　多为别人着想，人际关系才会更加顺利，此外，开玩笑要掌握好分寸，少跟小心眼的人混

　　在一起，即可避免不必要的麻烦。

　　【对异性的态度】

　　你能大大方方地跟异性相处，很容易交到男朋友，你的霸道主义有时会让另一半受

　　不了，也很可能会脚踏两条船，唯有心胸宽大的异性，才能给你完美的爱情。

　　【职业预测】

　　你的领导欲超强，不管什么工作都能得心应手，最适合自己当老板。

Recently..

Recently... Many things are on my mind.. One thing especially is my exams!! Gosh.. Time really flies.. My internal exams will in 2 weeks time and just a week after that, I'll be having my external exams! All really a rush.. I feel that I've not done anything to prepare myself at all. Haiz.. Who am I kidding? I haven't! Reading the books and doing some exercises doesn't seem enough.. When I come across a question that's similar to the others, I totally blank out.. This is really making me freak out. At first, I thought I wasn't just paying attention to what I was doing. But then, now I'm just thinking that I'm just not ready!!!

Pressure is also building up as I'm taking the computer-based exam.. Means I do the exam on the computer and I get my results straight after I finish. I haven't tried this method of exam before and I thought I'd give it a swirl~ It did seem like a good idea at that time to choose the computer-based instead of the paper-based.. But now, I'm not that sure.. Friends are telling me that it will be harder or that I'll feel more pressured to do well or blah blah blah~ Arghhhh!! All of that is making me just wanna cry out and say "I GIVE UP!!" And now I'll be the only one taking the computer-based as one of my friend who was initially supposed to take same as me has just decided to do the December exam.. Really thinking how it's all going to turn out on that day...

I guess I'm just worried a bit.. It's not that I don't understand what I'm studying.. I like what I'm learning and I know that what I've learned is in my head somewhere.. Just that.. What if it decides not to come out of my mind on the day of the exams? What if I just blank out? Or what if I get too nervous to finish all the questions? Or what if what I actually know is not enough for me to get good grades? So many what if's.. Aiks.. I remember I once read that we shouldn't live in a world of "What If's"... That would be really bad coz we won't be able to do a thing as we would only keep worrying and think about the problem! So GET AWAY all the "What If's" in my head.. GO!! I don't need you!!!!!

Phew~ Really good to write all down here. Although I have my diary to write in, but typing is much better and faster.. Hopefully after this rant, I'll be ok again.. I think because of this "problem", I've been having stressful sleeps.. I wake up all uptight and can't relax even when I sleep.. And with that, I tend to take long afternoon naps which then buys up my time to study.. Really so frustrating! It's so true that you can't win them all..

With all the "business" in studying and preparing for the exams, I kinda fallen behind in my journey with the Lord. I believe this is the biggest problem for me right now.. How can I sacrifice my time and passion for the Lord.. This is so NOT right.. Usually I would always talk to my Lord and tell Him of all the things that I'm grateful for and all the things that I'm happy with throughout the day.. Nowadays, I just pray for what I want.. And if I don't see anything that I want, I'll totally ignore Him.. This is totally unacceptable!!! Lord, I'm sure you know that I've not been totally in-sync with you lately, even I now finally know(or admit, which I think is a more appropriate word)that.. Will You bring me back closer to You? I want to love You like how I did.. I don't want to ever be lukewarm with You.. I want my love to be on fire for You and You alone.. Coz the feeling of not being close with you is a really horrid feeling to go through.. Lord, let me put You first in my life above all else.. Now and forevermore.. Amen!

More songs~ Loving them~

Taylor Swift - Love Story




We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you...

Brian Littrell - In Christ Alone


GMB - Mengejar HadirMu



Dekat padaMu itu rinduku
Setiap kataku Kau pun menunggu
Tak kusangka kutemukan satu kasih yang abadi
Kini kudatang dan kubawa hidupku

Memandang wajahMu
Mengikuti kebaikanMu
Mengejar hadirMu
dalam hidupku

Membawa sembahku
Menyatakan kebesaranMu
Mengejar hadirMu
dalam hidupku

Songs~

Various songs that I'm suddenly into~ (Although some are quite old already~)


Satu Suara~



Hui Hu Xi De Tong ( 會呼吸的痛 ) - Liang Jing Ru



Zhuan Shu Tian Shi(专属天使) by TANK (Hana Kimi 花样少年少女)


Enjoy! =)

Outing with Terry and Sali~

Oh my gosh~ I just got back. The last time I came home past midnight was like months ago~ When Jessie was still back here! Ohhhh.. How I miss her~ Hope to have some fun with her when she gets back.. Qi Dai Qi Dai~ Haha..

Today.. Haha... Really very funny.. Terry was supposed to pick up Sali around 6:30p.m. and then pick me up before heading to the beach for dinner.. But he called at 6:40p.m. saying " Can I come pick you up first?" I answered "Why? You don't know the way to Sali's house is it?" He was like "How did you know that? But yea.. I really don't know. When I was about to leave my house, I had totally no idea where I was suppose to head to." Oh gosh.. That was so so so very funny~ So, he ended up coming to Sembulan from Iramanis that area and then going back to the road to Tuaran where Sali lives.. Far right? But it was a fun trip.. Got to catch up a bit.. And catch up more when he sent Sali home first and then only me.. Ahhh.. Miss him so much.. So nice~

We went to the beach to have dinner.. Can't believe I actually paid for Terry's meal.. RM15 for everything.. And for myself the same thing.. So it was RM30 for the whole dinner. But I guess I owed him that.. Didn't pay him for the drinks last time.. And he wouldn't let me forget about that.. LOL..

Well, we walked at the beach awhile after eating and also contemplated whether to eat durian.. That was funny.. Standing at the side of the road discussing.. But of course not about durian only.. About what movie to watch and where.. Haha.. In the end it was Wolverine at Growball..The movie wasn't that bad.. Got some funny parts in there and some more funny parts if you can catch the dry jokes. Haha.. But quite interesting I guess.. Then we went for supper at Damai after the movie.. It was so sweet of Sali to pay for supper. Hmm.. That reminds me.. I still owe her lunch one day and she owes me dinner.. Haha..

Oww.. It was really nice to spend time with them.. Expecially Terry whom I've not seen for ages.. Ok ok.. Maybe just 3 months. But even so.. AGES~~~~~~~~~~ Ah... Wish he didn't have to go to Taiwan.. I want him here. But anyways, 10 years time we'll meet up for board game ya? It's still on right? LOL.. See if you can play twister then~ =P

Cell~

I went to Cell just now.. It was so much fun!! They are really a funny bunch of people! Could laugh the whole night through if people like Bernard or George kept talking.. Haha.. Not a bad thing I guess. =P

Worship was nice.. Although it was only two songs, but I could really feel the Lord's presence there.. It is so true that when one or two gather in the Lord's name, His presence will be among us all.. Word sharing was done by Chen Eng.. I think she did a wonderful job.. Can really make a person think.. Hope to be able to share like her one day.. Hmm...

We were talking about Mark 13.. It was about trials and tribulations when the end times are coming.. We discussed a lot. Although we were joking along the way and were talking about killings a lot, but I think we all learned quite a lot on that topic.. We now know that it is actually normal to be afraid of facing the tribulations.. But we cannot skim through it or purposely die just to get pass the torture and troubles.. We need to face it bravely.. Stand strong and firm in our faith, be a witness to the people and to pray hard..

I just wanna say my opinions.. If you really know me, I was too shy to speak up just now. But when we were discussing of purposely dying(like through asking another person to kill us so that we wouldn't go through the sufferings), I feel that that is not right.. Even if you didn't pull the trigger on the gun or push the knife into yourself, but if you ask someone else to kill you, I stil believe that that is a kind of suicide. Just that you didn't do the action.. It was still the thought of killing yourself that is wrong.. Like Bernard joked, "That(Asking somebody to kill yourself) isn't in the contract to get to heaven during the trials and tribulations. Take the elevator down 8 floors(But we all know that that is too little.. Maybe a few thousand to reach hell).."

Another thing is that if a soldier or an antichrist person were to come threaten or harm you, I think that it is ok to defend yourself. Even if in the process you did kill the person, I believe it isn't really murder.. But hopefully we will never come to face that.. I think none of us wants to kill a person..

So I really think that this has made me think a lot.. I do believe that I wouldn't give up my faith during the end times.. But who can actually be sure? If you go through enough sufferings and tortures, it might even make you change your mind about Christ. So I think I need to build up my relationship with God. Like what people always say.. "I will die for the one I love." I really hope that that will be me when and if I do face this second coming of the Lord.. That I will be willing to die for my Lord. That I will not put aside my faith just so that I can live on..

But if I do get pass the sufferings and the torture and still be alive when Jesus does come again, I think it would be such an awesome experience.. Like Eleni said, "It would be a splendour moment." We would be able to see Jesus descend from the heavens in the glorious manner He Himself is.. Maybe when we really do see Him with our very own eyes, all the sufferings and tortures we went through would be quite worthed it..

I guess that's all for tonight.

P/S: Really wanna thank Bernard for picking me up and sending me home after that.. I know he must have missed his tv shows at Bel's.. Haha.. And thanks to Bel for the delicious dinner.. Thanks guys..

New Friends

Have you ever felt bad for making new friends? Felt like if you made new friends, you might spoil your existing relationship with those you already have? I for one do... But I'm not sure whether this feeling is right... And whether it is a common one felt by many..

Then again, I don't really lose my old friendship.. It's just we don't keep in touch that often~ But we still are friends.. We still care for each other. We still hope the best for each other. Many many "We still"s.. Friendship is such a hard thing to understand.. It seems that just a little "mistake" might wreck it. And worse still, we might not even know we had made a "mistake"!

Anyways, forget about that for now.. Let's talk others..

I've made some new friends in my college.. Namely Debra, Jeannie, Fannie, Jason, Priscilla and Grace who are also my classmates. Others include Mei Mei, Judy, Yvonne, Rui Ping and other old classmates plus schoolmates... But I'm mostly closer with those in my own class. I feel so at home with them.. They are a great bunch of people! All with their own unique personalities..

Debra, whom I click much more with as we speak the same language and "frequency", is such a sweet person.. She shares a lot of her stories with me.. And also things that she had done when we weren't in class. And I like that about her. So open and friendly... She doesn't speak Chinese though and sometimes she is left out of the conversation when the 7 of us are in a group.. Hope she doesn't mind that too much. Haha.. Pity her a bit.. But then.. I try to translate to her sometimes. Hope she doesn't think I am too "Fan"... @.@ Looking forward to keeping in touch with her even when she takes the part time course in July.. Gonna miss her in class.. Haiz...

Jeannie is a little peculiar.. Haha.. When I first met her, she was such a shy person. When you talk to her or ask her a question, she would just keep quiet or smile. She wouldn't step into our conversations. But as time passed(and maybe due to our friendliness too... Haha! =P), she started to open up... And I start to know that she is actually a very friendly person as well and says really interesting things.. I guess you really got to wait until a person opens up then only you can see their real personality~

Fannie... She's the second youngest among the girls(and me being the youngest if you didn't already know).. I feel that we have many things in common. As in types of food that we like to eat, our thoughts at times, etc.. She's a very funny girl.. Always making us laugh and having a good time during our break... She was the person who opened up topics so that there wouldn't be any awkwardness among us when we first started this course.. I guess we need to thank her for that and that we can talk about anything now..

Jason is the only guy in my class. Even so, I'm very surprised with his willingness to spend break time with us girls.. I thought he would have cabut-ed once the first morning class was over. But I'm happy he didn't.. If he had, we wouldn't have known him as such an "interested-to-know-anything" type of guy... He always asks a lot of questions.. Mainly about things that he couldn't ask guys but only girls.. Haha.. And I personally was surprised at how brave he is to ask anything he likes.. He is currently working as a promoter for Hotlink... He even promotes the student package to us during break time repeatedly.. Hotlink should pay him more.. Haha.. He does his promoting even when he is off work! =P

Priscilla is the oldest among us.. But I think she is still young at heart.. Actually, all of them are.. They don't seem like their age(in a good way of course... ^^). She is the one who is absent from class the most.. We don't know what she's up to most of the time. But we usually guess she went back to her hometown in Miri.. And yes.. She's from Miri.. Now I know someone from there... Haha.. She is someone who is quite shy but at time also quite bold. She says what she knows and is not afraid to make mistakes sometimes.. That's a good quality..

And last but not least is Grace.. To be frank, I don't really know her that well... I don't usually engage in a conversation with her.. But from what I see.. She has some personality~ She is kinda like the big sister who knows a lot of things... She keeps us informed of stuff.. But like Jason always says.. She always goes solo.. Haha.. She likes to go off by herself.. And don't really have her break time with us.. Well, I hope to get to know her better in the future~

Long post eh? If you really read it all, I must give you props... Coz it is all about my friends.. And maybe you're reading about people you don't know at all.. But anyways... These are my new friends.. Not sure how the friendship will develop.. But I'm looking forward to some long-lasting ones... We'll just have to see how it goes then! Hmm.... *Thinks about the future*

Interesting....

Look what I found....

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own Facebook account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

Teen/ Romance:
(x) The Cinderella Story
( ) Another Cinderella Story
(x) Step Up
(x) Step Up 2
(x) High School Musical
(x) High School Musical 2
( ) High School Musical 3
( ) Hannah Montana Movie
(x) Enchanted
(x) Sydney White
Total: 7

(x ) She's the Man
() Licensed to Wed
( ) The Break-up
(x ) 13 going on 30
(x ) 27 Dresses
( ) P.S I Love You
(x) Made of Honour
( ) What Happens in Vegas
(x) Get Smart
( ) The Princess Brides
Total: 12

(x ) Camp Rock
( x) Wild Child
( ) Ella Enchanted
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
() 50 First Dates
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Hotel For Dogs
( ) Just Married
(x) Freaky Friday
Total: 18

( ) The Hot Chick
( ) Sleepover
(x) Confessions Of a Shopaholic
() Twilight
(x ) Nancy Drew
(x) The Devil Wears Prada
() No Reservations
(x) Perfect Man
(x ) Australia
( ) Never Been Kissed
Total: 23

Comedy/Humour:
(x ) Yes Man
(x ) Bedtime Stories
(x) The Pink Panther
(x) The Pink Panther 2
( ) Marley & Me
(x) Cheetah Girls
(x) Cheetah Girls 2
( ) Bratz
(x ) Haunted Mansion
( ) Paul Blart Mall Cop
Total: 30

( ) The 40-year-old virgin
(x) Night in the Museum
( ) Night in the Museum 2
(x) Evan Almighty
(x) Bruce Almighty
(x ) White Chicks
( ) Neverending Story
() Meet the Spartans
( ) Meet the Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
Total: 34

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
() Scary Movie 4
( ) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 34

Adventures:
(x) Harry Potter 1: The Sorcerer’s Stone
(x) Harry Potter 2: The Secret Chamber
(x) Harry Potter 3: Prisoner of Azkaban
(x) Harry Potter 4: Goblet of Fire
(x) Harry Potter 5: Order of Phoenix
(x) Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: Return Of the King
(x ) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
( x) Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian
Total: 44

( ) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
( ) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
( ) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
(x) Indiana Jones and the Crystal Skull
(x) The Mummy
(x) The Mummy 2
(x) The Mummy 3
(x ) Journey to the Centre of Earth
( ) City of Ember
( ) Finding Neverland
Total: 49

(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 3: At World's End
( ) X-Men
( ) X-2
( ) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Spider Man 3
(x) King Kong
Total: 56

() Hellboy
( ) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
() Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
( ) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
( ) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
( ) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
() Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Underdog
( ) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Batman: The Dark Knight
Total: 57

Action/ Thriller
() The Matrix (Maybe I should try watching.. Mr. Aw keeps bringing it up in class~)
() The Matrix Reloaded
() The Matrix Revolutions
(x) Terminator
(X) Terminator 2
(X) Terminator 3
( ) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
(X) Ocean's Thirteen
(x) Casino Royale 007
Total: 62

(x) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremacy
(x) Underworld
( ) Butterfly Effect
() Death Note
() Death Note 2
() Death Note 3: L Change the world
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
( ) I, Robot
Total: 64

(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
(x ) Rush Hour 3
(X ) Mission Impossible 1
(X) Mission Impossible 2
(x) Mission Impossible 3
( ) I Am Legend
( ) Predator I
() Predator II
() Signs
Total: 70

Horror:
() Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) Saw III
( ) Saw IV
( ) Saw V
(x ) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) The Ring
() The Ring 2
Total: 72

(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
() Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
Total: 76

(x) The Grudge
(x) The Grudge 2
( ) The Haunted Apartment
() Siren
() Silent Hill
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
( ) Alone
() Omen
(x) House Of Wax
Total: 80

() The Eye
() The Eye 2
() Shutter
(x ) When the Stranger calls
(x ) The Fog
( ) The Orphanage
( x) The Skulls
() Cruel Intentions
() Cruel Intentions 2
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
Total: 83

Cartoons:
(x) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Ice Age
(x ) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
() Madagascar
() Madagascar 2
() Kung Fu Panda
(x) Bolt
(x) Wall-E
(x) Monsters Inc
(x) Shark Tale
Total: 90

(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
(x) Shrek 3
(x) Finding Nemo
(x) ET
(x ) Cars
(x) Ratatouille
(x) Toy Story
(x) Toy Story 2
(x) The Incredibles
Total: 100

Inspirational:
(x) Little Miss Sunshine
( ) I Am Sam
(x) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Coach Carter
() The Last Dance
() To Kill A Mockingbird
( ) Conrack
( ) Midnight Sun
( ) Little Black Book
( ) Rwanda Genocide
Total: 102

Classics:
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Titanic
( ) Romeo & Juliet
( ) Frankenstein
( ) A Midsummer Night's Dream
Total: 103

Hmm... 103 films.. That's over 85.. Does that mean I don't have a life? Yikes~ But I watch movies alot because I like movies.. Maybe it is counted as a hobby? Haha.. Well, this is just a small something I thought was interesting to do.. Maybe you can try it out too and see how many movies have you watched already in total.. Leave me a comment and tell me when you've done it.. =)

Cookies~

I baked coookies today since I had no class.. Woke up this morning and my mom suddenly said "You should bake cookies today." She surprised me by saying that as she wouldn't normally ask me to bake something.. Haha.. But I like baking. Since given the chance, we started discussing what type of cookies to make.. Ended up making chocolate cookies with dark chocolate icing.. YUM~ Like the sound of that.. We searched the internet for a recipe.. And here it is:

Chocolate Cut-Out Cookies

Cook Time: 10 minutes

Ingredients:

• 1/2 cup butter
• 3/4 cup granulated sugar
• 1 egg
• 1 teaspoon vanilla
• 1 1/2 cups flour
• 4 tablespoons cocoa
• 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
• 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
• 1/4 teaspoon salt

Preparation:

In large mixing bowl cream butter and sugar together; add egg and vanilla and beat until light and fluffy. Combine flour, cocoa, baking powder, baking soda and salt; gradually add to creamed mixture, blending well. Chill dough for about 1 hour or until firm enough to roll. Heat oven to 325°. Roll portions of dough on lightly floured board or between 2 pieces of wax paper to 1/4 inch thickness. Cut into desired shapes with cookie cutters; place on ungreased cookie sheet. Continue rolling out and cutting shapes until all dough is used. Bake 8 to 10 minutes or until no indentation remains when a cookie is touched lightly in the center. Cool slightly; remove to wire rack to cool thoroughly. Frost or decorate as desired. Makes 2 to 3 dozen cookies.

Icing:
Blend 2 cups sifted powdered sugar with 1/2 teaspoon vanilla and about 1 1/2 to 2 tablespoons milk or half and half. Stir until smooth and add more milk or half-and-half if necessary. If color is desired, spoon portions of icing into small bowls and stir drops of food coloring in until desired colors are achieved.

(http://southernfood.about.com/od/chocolatecookies/r/bl21218b.htm)

Instead of using the above icing recipe, we used the dark chocolate that we had in our refrigerator.. So, it was much easier.. As we just had to melt the chocolate and spread it on top of the cookies when they were done.

You know what the funny thing was.. We didn't have any baking soda... My mom had used it all up in the last "baking session" and forgot to replenish.. Luckily it didn't turn out hard or anything.. Or else we would be left with 160 rock hard cookies~ Haha.. Wonder who would eat them then...

We had fun making those cookies.. At least I know I did.. The whole duration took us around 5 hours! From start to washing up... Was so tired after that.. And I think I ate too many during the process of baking and spreading of icing that when I got to the finished product, it didn't really appeal to me anymore.. Haha.. Funny..

P/S: I would have uploaded some photos of the cookies. But my family camera has been lent to a friend. Oh well..