Father's Day~

I think this year's Father's Day was the most "eventful" one for me.. Well, at least we did a lot of things to prepare for the day. Usually, we would go out for dinner to celebrate. If not, then it would be take away. But this year, we made everything.. =)

My mom, my sis and I worked together to prepare all the food stuff.. Saturday night, we baked the Chocolate Walnut Buttercake with Chocolate Whip Cream~ Yummy! We started baking around 7:30p.m. and we only managed to finish everything(including washing up) at 12:15a.m. So long right? Coz we had to mix the things in the mixer for quite a long time if I were to say.. After that, the cake took 1 hour and 15 minutes to bake, another 1 hour and 15 minutes to cool, and then to make the whip cream and "decorate" the cake took us around half and hour.. Who would know that it would take such a long time to bake and present a cake.. Haha.. But anyways, we made it and we slept around 2a.m.

I had to wake up around 7a.m. today as my family were going to have breakfast with my grandauntie who had came back from Australia.. Breakfast was ok.. We ate at The Emperor.. The service was bad.. We had to "self-service" and we also kept asking for desert but still no one came to take our order.. =.=" So, in the end, we payed and and my mom, sis and I went to church straight after..

My dad made Tong Sui all of a sudden. When we came home from church, he said to me: "I made the yam and sweet potato tong sui. Don't know how to make la.. Just simply boil only.." But it turned out nice. Like those selling in the stalls. Although it is not my favourite, but I drank a boil.. Yummy~ We even ate the cake that we baked. Can see that today was full of carbs.. Lol.. Getting fat already~ @.@

Around 5p.m., just as we were going to prepare dinner, we realised that the appliances in the kitchen wasn't working.. My dad said that the current must have tripped and we had to wait till the next day to call the maintainance guy to come fix it.. But luckily, we could extend the plug to the sockets in the dining area and we managed to use the oven and to plug in the fridge. Praise God.. So, we made everything according to plan: Tiger Prawns with Mozerella Cheese, Buttered Rice with Raisins and Onions plus Garlic Bread.. Yum yum!

Well, I guess we really need to give all glory to God as He really helped us in many things.. He had made sure the mixer functioned well(the last time we used it, there was smoke!), He managed to make the cake turn out well, He made sure that dinner was still able to be prepared, He made sure that we would not need to worry about anything as He will be in everything! My God is really awesome! =)

Oh ya.. I even made a card for my dad.. Wanna see? Haha.. Actually, it is a cross stitch that I did and pasted it on papers..

What to Feel?

Recently, I am always in a grumpy mood. I constantly mope around and feel sad.. What's wrong with me??? *sigh* Even when I laugh, I sometimes feel that it is forced or not really what I feel. Sometimes I just laugh all crazily, hoping that maybe by laughing, I might feel better or even happier~ But I'm not even sure if it's working!

One of my close friends is facing a really major situation now. She might be losing someone very important in her life! It is really a very sad thing to hear.. Especially when we're that close. I think this is a part of the reason why I'm feeling sad. I feel so helpless in helping her. I know, there's nothing much that I can do to help. But at least I should be there comforting her and helping her feel better. The problem is.. I don't know how!! Every time I wanted to sms her, I would start typing but then in the end, I'd erase it all. You know why? Coz I feel that what I write would not help her at all. I feel that whatever I say, she will always think that I don't know what I'm talking about coz I'm not the one facing the situation. I feel that I don't even know what she's facing anymore or even how she feels.. It's just been so long since we last had a real good chat..

And those who know me know that I'm always affected by other people's problem. If they are sad, I'd be too. If they cry and they feel hurt, I would too.. If they are disappointed, somehow I would too.. Sounds ridiculous? But that's me.. And now, it's the same thing happening. I often cry myself to sleep. I often have sleepless nights. I try tiring myself by keeping busy so that I can fill up my mind with other things. Because all I'm thinking about is how to help her. How come all this can happen to her. How come she needs to face this now. How come How come How come! But all I get is darker circles around my eyes and no answers..

I know that this is not my problem and I shouldn't feel too bad about it. That I shouldn't let it affect me too much. But then, I still do. Coz I feel that if someone else can't be happy, then I can't too.. This is a really wrong "attitude" to have. But I don't know how to change it. It is as though "programmed" in me to be like this!

I really wish that things would be better. That her loved one would be healed. So that she can be happy, her family members can be happy and in the end, I'd be happy too. But this all seems impossible. Seeing from her blog, I know that things are getting worse. I know that the chances of being healed is slim. I know all that and now I'm even more sad..

Lord, will You help all of us in this situation? Will You place Your loving hands on this? I know that people live and die. I know that we don't control the time that a person leaves this earth. But I do hope, that for all the time that is left, all the happiness that is possible will be felt. That even if it really is the time to go, things will not be so hard for my friend and her family members. I pray that the whole family may be strong, that they will be able to hold on and not give up any hope! For I believe that miracles can happen, even to those who are not yet your followers. I know that you love them too.. So Lord, please pour out your comfort and grace in this hard time, that we may not lose hope.

Weird feelings~

I came home two hours ago.. Went out with Sali, Sali's brother, CCY and her sister.. They dropped by my house to give me my photo album and then we went out to the beach and after that, to Damai to play snooker.. Not that I knew how to play.. But at least, I tried.. Haha.. And I guess I had a great time.. Seeing that I spent the whole weekend at home.. Not even stepping out of my front door.. @.@

But just now, Sali said that she might be going to KL to study next year.. And that was quite a blow.. Hmm.. Actually, maybe it wasn't. I kinda knew that she would say that one day.. And actually, before I went out tonight, I had that exact thought, that she would say she is going to KL to study.. I'm happy for her.. Coz she has always been saying that she wants to study the course that she likes but her parents wouldn't allow her. Now seeing that she finally has the chance, I'm absolutely thrilled. I am.. Just that.. Well, she was the only person in my close group of friends that was supposed to stay here in KK. And if she really does go, where would that leave me?

I know.. Friends come and go.. But it is really a sad thought, no? Terry would be leaving in September or even earlier, in August.. And then, the next would be Sali, if she really does decide to go.. All my friends would really be scattered then.. And who knows what that would do to our tight-knit relationship.. First Caroline, then Jessie and Joyce, then Amie and Shu Ling, then Terry, then Sali.. Aiks..

I always thought that I would be the one who goes away to study too. That I would be able to send in my result slips and then be offered offer letters. That I would get to stay some place new and try to live by my own. That I would cry over the fact that I miss my family and friends. That I would look so forward to going home during the holidays.. But life is really unpredictable, isn't it? What you always think isn't what always happens.. It isn't what always turns out..

Actually, I don't feel angry or regretful that my life wasn't what I thought it would be like. I am actually very grateful that I get to stay close with my family members. I feel that we have been growing closer together as time passes and I'm always very happy being with them. I am very happy that I can meet new friends in my college and that I would be meeting even more new ones in the coming semester.. I'm glad that I can stay on in my church. It is an awesome place to worship..

I am happy with what I have. But sometimes I do wonder what it would have been like if I did get what I wanted when I got into College/Uni.. It isn't wrong to wonder, is it? Maybe I would have more things to be busy about, maybe I would join clubs, or maybe I would be working part time.. Whole loads of "Maybe's" and makes me think whether I would feel more self-accomplished.

This is a whole lot of "crap".. One part I'm happy, then I'm sad, then I'm grateful and then I'm guessing what life would be like if it was different.. Really just whole loads of feelings just sweeping over me. And maybe.. I just need to sleep it off. Hopefully, it will not bother me when I've woken up later in the morning..

Part 1 of ACCA over~

Oh my gosh~ Part 1: Knowlegde of ACCA is over! Today was the last day of the exam for me.. And I can't believe that 5 months of studying this is now over.. Now I can look forward to the new semester.. And I already know that there will be loads of new classmates! Looking forward to that~ Can make new friends! ^^ New semester will bring about new changes though.. No more MCQ's for exams.. It'll all be written ones. And no more lecturers that I've gotten used to.. New lecturers~ *Sigh*

Anyways, talking about exam~ I managed to pass all 3 papers of my Part 1! My first paper was really good.. 80% and I'm very glad with that.. Thanks to Mr. Aw for all his hardwork in explaining things so that we can always remember them.. But for my second and third papers, not that good luck~ Just 64% for both papers.. Can't believe that I managed to get the same marks for F2 and F3! What are the odds of that? But as long as I passed and don't need to pay RM380 to re-sit any paper, then I'm a happy girl~ Haha..

Well, I'll be having 3 weeks of holiday now~ So happy! Finally get my long awaited school holiday~ Coz now, not like the days in Kian Kok.. Every 3 months get school holidays~ Those were the days~ Haha.. I guess I'll start watching Terry's FRIENDS DVD collection.. So nice of him to lend me those.. Wonder whether I'll be able to finish watching them or not.. So many~ @.@ And I also plan to read some books. Got a lot of books that I've bought but not yet read.. Should catch up on that too~ Hehe..

Jessie is coming back soon!!! So happy.. Another couple of weeks~ So fast.. Hopefully she can come to KK and stay here a bit longer.. I know she needs to be with her family in Labuan too.. But I wanna see her! Miss her so much~ Waiting for that~ ^^

I heard this song from a Singaporen series.. I like it~


Lyrics:
请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)

Hope you will like it too~ =)