Can you believe it?

It's the last few days of September already! Can you really believe it? Time really does fly.. But this time, it's not even when you are having fun.

I still remember at the beginning of the month that people kept writing "Wake me up when September ends" on their Facebook status. So, people, you guys can wake up now.. It's really ending. Did you do anything productive? Or were you really just "sleeping" it through?

For myself, as much as I hate to say it, I had been "sleeping" all these weeks. And the guilt is killing me! I did start to study. But the "routine" kind of vanish after just a few days.

Sometimes, I just disappoint myself. I feel so... Lost? Unmotivated? Regretful? When will I ever realise that I need to really work hard to study this course! Is it when I fail one of my papers and everything goes out of order? ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I'm sad and angry at the same time.. Help! Not just because of my studies.. It's about everything in my life.. It's like my life is not fulfilling.. How come it can all change in just one year? Last year, I had been so happy with my life.. And now...

I really hope this is another phase of life.. I really don't want this feeling in me now to last anymore..

Mid-term~

Well, my mid-term is over! Thank goodness for that.. All those studying was really about to make my head blow!! Who knew studying something like accounting would be so challenging.. SO many things to memorize.. Gosh..

And you know what mid-term means.. It means that I now have half the time to prepare for my year end external exam.. And I got to say, I'm definitely not looking so forward to it. I could just imagine myself panicking over it. And getting sweaty palms while answering the questions.. Or maybe.. My hands would freeze as I heard that the exam hall is super duper cold.. Arghh~

Anyhow, I'll still have to face it in the end.. So, why worry? It'll come and go as it always has.. Just.. Hopefully, I'll get into the study mood soon.. @.@

Terry~

My dear friend, Terry will be leaving for Taiwan tomorrow! Gosh.. Time passes so fast! I still remember it being just last month when we were all thinking that things were still so far away.. Now, the time has arrived and he is getting ready to leave.

This friend of mine was introduced by another good friend, Jessie when I was in Form 2. That time, I didn't know him that well. We just did projects together and discussed about our folios and what not. As time passed, we grew closer and closer in friendship. It's like we could share anything between the two of us. I could always depend on him to lend a listening ear, to cheer me up when I was down or to understand and relate to what I was feeling. We could always discuss about anything and give each other advices. We could also spend hours and hours on the phone just chatting away! Aww... Really gonne miss all of these "routine" of ours.

As the months passed this year and we have left high school, the calls grew lesser, but I still feel that we are as close as always. Thinking of him leaving for his Univeristy life is both bitter and sweet. Sometimes, when you meet a special person in life, it is a little hard to see the person stepping further and further away in your life. It is like, the person has always played a part in your life and now, that part would be smaller than it used to be.

But.. Enough said, I still want to wish him all the very best! It is his dream of going to Taiwan. It is his dream to become a doctor in the future. With that, I wish you smooth sailing with all that is to come. Big waves may come crashing, but take up courage and face them. You will still have your friends right there beside you. I'm sure we will still keep in touch and I will be looking forward to seeing you when you get back to KK again next year.

God bless Terry and take care! Make the best of things there and do not be afraid of what is to come. All those reasons that made you choose Taiwan will be the reasons that will make you happy there! Love ya, Terry! =)